Life right now....

I feel nothing. I feel everything.
Nothing makes sense. Everything makes too much sense
I am a loser. I am completely satisfied
I don't sleep. I dream
I think. I think. I think. My brain is not working.
I like life. I hate my life.
I am pessimistic. I am a huge bubbling cauldron of positive energy.
I am depressed. I laugh too much.
I like every single person that I have met. I hate the whole world.
I am grateful. I am angry.
I feel passionate. I feel pain.
I can do anything. I cannot do the simplest thing.
I am afraid. I feel fearless.
I have too many thoughts. I have a blank mind.
I need a plan. I plan too much.
I want to find myself. I want to lose myself.
I have too much confidence. I am not sure of myself.
I want to remember. I want to forget.
I pay attention. I cannot concentrate.
I am funny. I am intensely serious minded.
I smile at irony. I think irony is tragic.
I like order. I love chaos.
I want to do many things. I want to be idle.
I have no time. I can feel the seconds ticking away.
I communicate well. No one understands me.
I care. I could not care less.
I want to own. I want to give.
I am an open book. I am very closed.
I am easy going. I am dogmatic.
I want to sleep. I want to wake up.
I am perceptive. I don’t notice things.
Life is good. I am stalked by hopelessness.
I want to travel. I want to go home.
I want to know everything.
I long to be creative.
I like the sunshine.
I want to wander.
I am drained.
I want to disconnect.
I can’t make up my mind.
I feel that life is magical.
I think. I think. I think….